fangirl dilemma: there and back again
September 29, 2014 § Leave a comment
Just another 17-year-old daydreamer who spends her time in made up reality rather than with her friends. My fangirling has been really unbearable these days, and I really don’t know why. It all started in July. I decided to read The Hobbit book again and completely fell for it. Then for the movies and characters and whoooosh, here I am. Crying all day, knowing how the book ends, scared by the fact my beloved dwarves are gonna die.
And that is my problem. I want to be normal again and take it as a normal movie without emotions. But it seems impossible. I need someone with the same problem I can talk to. Or someone without this problem to help me. I think the third movie will tear my heart apart.
Whoooosh. What a perfect word to describe what it feels like to get swept up in a fangirl tornado of emotions. I’ll have to remember that and add it to the dictionary.
Aredhel, do you have your own tribe of friends like Tolkien’s 13 dwarves? Friends who are as beloved as the fictional characters steering your thoughts and emotions? If you don’t have fangirl friends, don’t be afraid to reach out to the great wide Internet and scoop some up (always being careful and checking they’re not axe murderers of course, with you being a young one). But even if they don’t share your interests, real life friends can be just as valuable. What is your dream for your life, and what is the dragon in it? And most important, who can accompany you along the journey and help you feel brave?
I can assure you that you’ll survive the third movie, my friend, but what you do with the story is up to you. And as the great J. R. R. Tolkien wrote, “There is nothing like looking if you want to find something.”